Deeper Healing
4/22/2026
The Beginning of Deeper Healing
Heightened grief is something I have struggled with since the loss of my middle son, who passed five years ago. It wasn’t until I attended the Respite Retreat at the Beach, click here for couples who have lost children, that I started to pray and learn more about this, as I mentioned in my previous blog (read it here).
Through this retreat, I realized I needed to begin healing more deeply, and I started speaking to God about my hidden wounds.
On a beautiful, sunny day in the Monadnock Region of New Hampshire, at an acupuncture appointment, I began talking to the Lord about my recent lab results with a naturopathic doctor.
I found myself being honest with Him in a deeper way.
“Lord, I don’t want to rely on acupuncture to manage my health anymore. I’ve struggled to cry, to heal, and to let go of the wounds I’ve been carrying—from the loss of my son, and even before that.”
There was a pause.
Then the Lord said to me, “Do you remember the wholehearted inner healing program with Elise Tarango?”
“Yes, Lord,” I said quietly in my head.
He gently asked, “What if you exchanged acupuncture for wholehearted inner healing prayer?”
“Really, Lord?” I responded.
Then He said, “Do you trust Me?”
And I answered, “Yes, Lord, I do.”
Choosing Healing and Hearing His Voice
After several conversations with my husband and Elise’s team, I decided I was going to trust the voice of the Lord. As I committed, I prayed to the Holy Spirit. God healed my heart in my 20s through prayer at the altar at Southeastern University—what could stop Him now in my 40s? I said to myself.
Sure enough, within weeks of my heart-healing sessions, as I brought my heart to Him, I began to hear His heart and His words of encouragement through prayer. The fog I had been carrying since the loss of my son started to lift, and I began to hear God the Father in my heart more clearly than ever before.
I started to discern the voice that had been lying to me for many years—exacerbating the resentments and wounds I had been holding onto—and I began to pursue deeper healing. The learning I experienced with the Holy Spirit was to exchange these emotions for rest and wholeness.
Session by session, I surrendered parts of my heart. And as I continue in the program, I continue to surrender my heart to the Lord through heart-healing prayer.
With my prayer partner, who carries an intercessor’s heart, God would whisper strategies into my spirit—how to rest in Scripture, forgive, let go of resentment, anger, fear, anxiety, and depression, and to feel love and joy all over again.
Whole-Body Healing and Living It Out
This is my testimony, and I don’t mind saying it. I am a counselor who has both provided and received counseling for many years, and nothing—nothing—has brought healing to my heart and health like biblical counseling and prayer.
Honestly, what I’ve come to see as whole-body health is inner healing and biblical counseling working together.
Talking to Jesus and meditating on Scripture, guided by the Holy Spirit, have been the most healing things I could have ever received for my heart and my body.
Through heart-healing prayer, the Lord has challenged me to rest in His peace and to create biblical rhythms that lead to faithfulness and fruitfulness. I’ve been anchoring this in Colossians 3:12–17—learning to clothe myself with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience… to forgive as the Lord forgave me… and to let the peace of Christ rule in my heart.
Through prayer, Scripture, and discernment, I am learning to live this out daily—to let His Word dwell in me richly, shaping how I love, how I forgive, and how I walk in faithfulness and fruitfulness in a way that aligns with our family values in a balanced way.
In the middle of my healing journey, I am learning—through God’s strategy—to write my unwritten story wholeheartedly, with a surrendered and rested heart.
If you want to add prayer and Scripture to your healing journey, don’t let fear or lies tell you that God’s Word and prayer cannot bring freedom to any situation.
I can testify that my sugar numbers are now stable. Foods like steak and sweet potato are no longer causing spikes—something that, for me, was connected to unhealed wounds. I have energy as I have never had before. I am in the middle of finishing my pastoral counseling degree, which I paused after losing my son. I am also working on my inner healing certification, and I’m able to think more clearly and create better rhythms that lead to faithfulness and fruitfulness.
If you want to encounter freedom, healing, and fruitfulness, reach out by clicking here. We can pray together and create a Scripture-centered plan that keeps the Lord at the center, heals your heart, and renews your mind.